There is NO Room in The Left Hand Path for everybody? Let's discuss.

I disagree.  There is room for everybody in The Left Hand Path.  And I'm not talking about Illuminati scams that promise Billions of Dollars. In fact, those scammers know nothing about the original Bavarian Illuminati.

According to Encyclopedia Britannica: The Bavarian illuminati group was a movement of republican free thought and is probably the most prominent group associated with the name illuminati. It was founded in 1776 by Adam Weishaupt, professor of canon law at Ingolstadt and former Jesuit. Weishaupt wanted to replace Christianity with a religion of reason, and the members of his society called themselves “Perfectibilists.” The society was carefully structured and divided into three main classes. Weishaupt’s recruitment efforts spread across the cities of Bavaria, and he also made connections with a number of Masonic lodges, where his group often managed to gain a prominent position. The movement over time acquired a rigorously complex constitution and internal communication system, conducted in a cipher. At its zenith, the Bavarian illuminati operated in a very large area, extending from Italy to Denmark and from Warsaw to Paris. The movement was ultimately banned, and Weishaupt was stripped of his professorship at Ingolstadt. No evidence of the Bavarian order appears in the historical record after 1785.

And often, Conspiracy Theorists such as Alex Jones, Mark Dice, and David Icke has tried to state, with no genuine evidence, that there is an Illuminati running the show with our U.S. Government, and that they plan to replace Christianity with a government sanctioned form of Satanism, sponsored by Pagans, Occultists, the LGBTQIA+ community, the Pro-Choice community, but all of this has been debunked over the years.

I'm also not talking about anything out of Dan Brown's novels.

Now, Left Hand Path practices have been existent for a very long time, but many of the practices came to fruition in the 19th & 20th centuries, mostly mockeries of the Holy Catholic Mass known as The Black Mass or The Satanic Mass by LHP covens.  And these covens were also Theistic.

But many remember 1966, when Anton LaVey opened The Church of Satan, which shunned Theistic Satanism.

"But, But... I thought LaVey opened the door for Satanists."

No, The Church of Satan is a Non-Theistic (Or Atheistic) organization that sees Satan not as a deity, but as a Symbol of freedom, independence, and indulgence.  We Theistic Satanists believe in that too, but we do not worship Satan as a Symbol.

"Are you talking about the biblical Satan?"

No, I'm speaking of Satan long before The Church and The Bible were even things.

"But where are the Theistic organizations?"

Google is your friend.

Also, LaVey was a plagiarist and exposed by his own daughter, Zeena, so there. 

Now, as a Dark Pagan as well, let me try to explain somethings I learned when I started in Paganism.

I started out in Wicca.  At first, I liked the concept, but I found this "Rule Based" practice too restrictive.  If I wanted rules in The Craft of The Wise, I would be playing D&D (Which BTW, does not lead to Paganism, Witchcraft, or The Occult, so shut the fuck up already about this debunked claim, fucking fundies!)  And if I wanted rules, I'd go to church.

I tried attending online schools for Magick, such as Grey School of Wizardry, created by Oberon Zell-Ravenheart.  But when he passed leadership over to Nicholas Kingsley, that is when I decided to go away.  I tried going back under his leadership, with a clean slate, but after he misgendered me (Which he denies), I told him off and denounced him as a RPer.  Other former students have told me he was the main reason they withdrew from the school. Fuck Him!

One benefit of being there as well as another school (which I will not name but is run by a power hungry bitch) was The Dark Arts.  And no, not the Wizarding World dark arts, but rather what is found in the Ordo Templi Orientis, The Rosicrucian Order, Temple of Set, organizations such as that.  This is when I realized that Wicca was not for me and I thought is this what Jedi go through in "Star Wars: The Old Republic"?  Let's look at the codes:

 

The Jedi Code: Peace, Knowledge, Serenity, Harmony.  I can get behind those.

The Sith Code: Passion, Strength, Power, Victory.  I can get behind those too.

The Grey Code (Not Canon): Brings all of them together.

And I thought maybe those who are Wiccan Practitioners could bring those together as the Grey Jedi do...

BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

They are too much into "Whatever you send out, you get back Three Times", "And it Harm None, Do What Ye Will*", and "Love & Light".

Lao Zhu said: "Without Darkness, There can be No Light."

So, I concluded that there is NO Room in Wicca for everybody.  Now, I'm not going to chew out anyone I meet who says they are Wiccan, but at the same time, I'm not going to have them shove their "Love & Light" only beliefs down my throat, as Wicca feels like a Christian version of Paganism wrapped in a pretty pink bow.

*"And it Harm None, Do What Ye Will" is a blatant plagiarism of "Do What Thou Wilt shall be The Whole of The Law".

Now, back in the late 70s, all throughout the 80s, and the early 90s, you might remember a period of time we went through called "The Satanic Panic".

This is where we had a bunch of daycare centers blamed by paranoid fundamentalist Christians for using children in satanic ritual abuse and those who ran the centers got convicted and imprisoned.  But a few years, sometimes decades after those trials, investigators came to find that testimonies and evidence were fabricated, exhonorating those accused and paid restitution for lost time.

Depending on the statute of limitations for the states they occurred in, I personally would like to have those who cooked up those stories and coached the children on what to say and what to draw arrested, tried, and convicted for libel and perjury, have them locked up, and throw away the keys, so they can suffer like the ones they accused suffered, and they didn't do anything; However, it is best to let them live out the rest of their sorry sordid fundamentalist lives, knowing the shame they will carry with them to their graves.

And I do know this, they will not be welcomed at the pearly gates.  In fact, I think they will be redirected to Tartarus.

But those were not their only targets.  Heavy Metal came under fire, thanks mostly to Gary Greenwald (who is now in Tartarus) and his sermons and Eagle's Nest videos about alleged backmasked messages in Rock Music.  Backmasking was mostly used as a means of censoring something or for a dramatic effect, such as backmasking the guitar solo in "Are You Experienced" by The Jimi Hendrix Experience.  Some messages that were meant to be satirical wear backmasked so that when listeners played them backwards, they would usually hear something funny.  But Greenwald and others claimed that the backmasked messages were placed in music so that listeners could play them backwards and learn Satanic Spells.

Oh Really?

"Stairway To Heaven" was one of those victims.  Supposedly, when you backmask Verse 5, after the drums kick in, you hear Robert Plant praising Satan.

Have a listen and judge for yourself: 

 

SO...

From the Wikipedia Article on "Stairway to Heaven": In a January 1982 broadcast of the Trinity Broadcasting Network television program "Praise the Lord", hosted by Paul Crouch, it was claimed that hidden messages were contained in many popular rock songs through a technique called backmasking. One example of such hidden messages that was prominently cited was in "Stairway to Heaven". The alleged message, which occurs during the middle section of the song ("If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now...") when played backward, was purported to contain the Satanic references: "Here's to my sweet Satan / The one whose little path would make me sad whose power is Satan, / He'll give you, he'll give you 666 / There was a little tool shed where he made us suffer, sad Satan."  And yes, I remember seeing the look that Jan Crouch gave, looking like she was clutching her pearls.

Following the claims made in the television program, California assemblyman Phil Wyman proposed a state law that would require warning labels on records containing backmasking. In April 1982, the Consumer Protection and Toxic Materials Committee of the California State Assembly held a hearing on backmasking in popular music, during which "Stairway to Heaven" was played backward and self-described "neuroscientific researcher" William Yarroll claimed that the human brain could decipher backward messages.

The band itself has mostly ignored such claims. Swan Song Records responded to the allegations by stating: "Our turntables only play in one direction—forwards." Led Zeppelin audio engineer Eddie Kramer called the allegations "totally and utterly ridiculous. Why would they want to spend so much studio time doing something so dumb?" Robert Plant expressed frustration with the accusations in a 1983 interview in Musician magazine: "To me it's very sad, because 'Stairway to Heaven' was written with every best intention, and as far as reversing tapes and putting messages on the end, that's not my idea of making music."

Heavy Metal wasn't the only targeted music, Sheena Easton's "Sugar Walls" which was written by Prince made the PMRC (Parents Music Resource Center)'s list, so did Cyndi Lauper's "She Bop". In fact, here is the "Filthy Fifteen":

1. Prince - Darling Nikki (Sex/masturbation)
2. Sheena Easton - Sugar Walls (Sex)
3. Judas Priest - Eat Me Alive (Sex/violence)
4. Vanity - Strap On 'Robbie Baby' (Sex/S&M)
5. Mötley Crüe - Bastard (Violence/language)
6. AC/DC - Let Me Put My Love into You (Sex)
7. Twisted Sister - We're Not Gonna Take It (Violence)
8. Madonna - Dress You Up (Sex)
9. W.A.S.P. - Animal (Fuck Like a Beast) (Sex/language/violence)
10. Def Leppard - High 'n' Dry (Saturday Night) (Drug and alcohol use)
11. Mercyful Fate - Into the Coven (Occult)
12. Black Sabbath - Trashed (Drug and alcohol use)
13. Mary Jane Girls - In My House (Sex)
14. Venom - Possessed (Occult)
15. Cyndi Lauper - She Bop (Sex/masturbation)

That all started when Tipper Gore bought a copy of the "Purple Rain" soundtrack for her daughter, who was under 18 at the time, and when Tipper heard "Darling Nikki", she freaked.  So Ironic that Tipper grew up listening to "The Grateful Dead", which had more Sex & Drug related lyrics in their music for the longest time. And Ironic that Al Gore also was a fan of Frank Zappa, who's lyrics have been sexually, yet satirically suggestive, since playing with The Mothers of Invention ("The price of beef has just gone up, and your old lady has just gone down" from 'Cosmic Debris").

Zappa, along with Dee Snider of Twisted Sister and John Denver, who faced some censorship over some radio stations refusing to play "Rocky Mountain High" for obvious reasons, testified at the PMRC hearings against the group, claiming that their music and lyrics are protected by The First Amendment of The United States Constitution and that stickering albums would be going against the grain as many people who grew up with Rock Music and such were no strangers to explicit lyrics and probably knew not to let their kids listen to what they listened to until a certain age.

There were albums my parents and grandparents and my brother and sister had that I couldn't listen to until I was ready, such as those by Richard Pryor, Redd Foxx, Rudy Roy Moore, Lawanda Page, Coven, Black Sabbath, Led Zeppelin... but by the time I was Ten, I was already listening to Madonna, Def Leppard, Mötley Crüe, Prince, Van Halen, and I had seen several of Richard Pryor's stand-up movies and Eddie Murphy's "Delerious" and "Raw".  Too Late!

That's not saying my mother failed at raising me, because I was watching those movies with her.  Remember when George Carlin talked about the word "Shit" on his album "FM&AM"?  He said, "Middle class has never really been into shit, y'know, as a word. No, not really comfortable. Not completely into it. Y'know, not really relaxed with it. You'll hear it around the kitchen if someone drops a casserole, y'know, "OH SHIT! Oh! Oh, look at the noodles! OH SHIT! Don't say that, Johnny, just hear it. Oh, shit" Sometimes they say 'shoot'. They can't kid me, man. 'Shoot' is 's**t' with two 'o's."

Well, the RIAA had to start stickering albums anyway with generic stickers before the big "Parental Advisory - Explicit Lyrics" sticker came out in the 90s.  The women that were a part of the PMRC were dubbed "The Washington Wives", which the media tried to say was because of their close connections to their husbands.  COME ON!  Everyone knows a "STEPFORD WIVES" parody reference when they hear it!

What else was in The Satanic Panic?  Oh Yes, the war on Dungeons & Dragons and anything related to it.  The game itself, the 80s cartoon, the clothing, the books, etc. etc.  The big argument the Fundamentalists had was the Dungeons & Dragons was a gateway to Paganism, Witchcraft, & The Occult.  I thought I said shut the fuck up already about this debunked claim, fucking fundies!  Mostly, this little Moral Panic within a Panic concerned suicides and murders and murder-suicide pacts involving D&D players, mostly after a player named James Dallas Egbert III was found dead.

From Wikipedia's Article about Dungeons & Dragons Controversies: 

At various times in its history, Dungeons & Dragons has received bad publicity for alleged or perceived promotion of such practices as Satanism, witchcraft, suicide, pornography, and murder. Especially during the 1980s, certain religious groups accused the game of encouraging sorcery and the veneration of demons. Throughout the history of role-playing games, many of these criticisms have been aimed not at D&D specifically, but at the whole genre of fantasy role-playing games.

The concept of Dungeons & Dragons as Satanic was linked to concerns about Satanic ritual abuse, in that both presumed the existence of large, organized Satanic cults and societies. Sources such as the Dark Dungeons tract from Chick Publications portray D&D as a recruitment tool for these organizations.  Zombie Orpheus Films, a Dungeons & Dragons fan company, later made a short film based on it, as well as a mockumentary called "Attacking The Darkness" which makes fun of the D&D Moral Panic.

As the role-playing game hobby began to grow, it was connected in 1979 of the disappearance of 16-year-old James Dallas Egbert III. Egbert attempted suicide in the utility tunnels beneath the campus of Michigan State University, then went missing for a month. His parents hired private investigator William Dear to find him. Dear discovered that Egbert played Dungeons & Dragons and also heard rumors that students went into the steam tunnels to play a live action version of the game. Dear knew little about the game, and speculated to the press that Egbert had gotten lost in the steam tunnels during one such session. The press largely reported the story as fact, which served as the kernel of a persistent rumor regarding such "steam tunnel incidents". William Dear clarified what he discovered in the 1984 book The Dungeon Master, in which he rejected the link between D&D and Egbert's disappearance. He acknowledged that Egbert's domineering mother and struggles with his sexuality had more to do with his suicide than his interest in role-playing games.

In 1981, Rona Jaffe (A Cosmopolitan Magazine Contributor) published Mazes and Monsters, a novel with a plot similar to the Egbert case. The book was adapted into the 1982 made-for-television movie Mazes and Monsters, starring Tom Hanks. In 1983, the Canadian film Skullduggery depicted a role-playing game similar to D&D as tool of the devil to transform a young man into a serial killer. Neal Stephenson's 1984 novel satirizing university life, The Big U, includes a series of similar incidents in which a live-action fantasy role-player dies in a steam tunnel accident.

The publicity surrounding the Mazes and Monsters novel and film heightened the public's unease about role-playing games. But it also increased the sales of D&D game manuals considerably. For example, "sales of the Basic Set rose dramatically. Right before the steam tunnel incident, the Basic Set might have sold 5,000 copies a month. By the end of 1979, it was trading over 30,000 copies per month, and only going up from there".

Then there was Patricia Pulling.  Remember her?

Patricia Pulling was an anti-occult campaigner from Richmond, Virginia, and the founder of Bothered About Dungeons & Dragons (BADD) (MADD was already taken).  This one-person advocacy group was dedicated to the elimination of Dungeons & Dragons and other such games. Pulling founded BADD in 1982 after her son Irving died by suicide; she continued her advocacy until her death in 1997. As her son had played D&D, she filed a wrongful death lawsuit against her son's high school principal, holding him responsible for what she claimed was a D&D curse placed upon her son shortly before his death. She later filed suit against TSR, the game's publisher at the time.

The case against TSR was dismissed in 1984, and reporters disproved most of Pulling's claims. In 1990, science fiction and fantasy author Michael A. Stackpole authored The Pulling Report, a review highly critical of Pulling and BADD's methods of data collection, analysis, and reporting. When Pulling's lawsuits were dismissed, she founded BADD and began publishing information to promote her belief that D&D encouraged Satanism, rape, suicide, and many other immoral and illegal practices.

BADD effectively ceased to exist after Pulling died of cancer in 1997.

These were also talked about in a 1985 segment of 60 Minutes, where host Ed Bradley said: "[Dungeons & Dragons] has become popular with children anywhere from grammar school on up. Not so with a lot of adults, who think it's been connected to a number of suicides and murders." It featured interviews with Gary Gygax, co-creator of Dungeons & Dragons; Thomas Radecki, president of the National Coalition on TV Violence; and Pulling. It also included interviews with parents of players of the game, who had allegedly murdered people and died by suicide in connection with the game. Radecki linked the game to 28 murders and suicides. In response, Gygax said: "This is make-believe. No one is martyred, there is no violence there. To use an analogy with another game, who is bankrupted by a game of Monopoly? Nobody is. The money isn't real. There is no link, except perhaps in the mind of those people who are looking desperately for any other cause than their own failures as a parent". Gygax, a religious man himself, called the crusade to cancel D&D, "A Witch Hunt".
 

Then there was the murder of Lieth Von Stein.

A 1988 murder case in Washington, North Carolina that brought Dungeons & Dragons more unfavorable publicity, because members of a Dungeons & Dragons gaming group were involved. Chris Pritchard, a student at North Carolina State University, allegedly masterminded the murder of his stepfather, Lieth Von Stein, for his $2 million fortune. A masked assailant bludgeoned and stabbed Von Stein and his wife, Bonnie (Pritchard's mother), in their bedroom, leaving the husband fatally wounded and the wife gravely injured.

Pritchard had a history of mutual antagonism with Von Stein, and investigators learned that Pritchard had become involved with drugs and alcohol while attending NCSU. But the authorities focused on his role-playing group after a game map depicting the Von Stein house turned up as physical evidence. Pritchard's friends Neal Henderson and James Upchurch were implicated in a plot to help Pritchard kill Von Stein. All three men went to state prison in 1990. Henderson and Pritchard have since been paroled. Upchurch's death sentence was commuted to life in 1992; he is serving his term.

True crime authors Joe McGinniss and Jerry Bledsoe played up the role-playing angle. Much attention was given to Upchurch's influence and power as a Dungeon Master. Bledsoe's book, Blood Games, was made into a TV movie, Honor Thy Mother, in 1992. The same year, McGinniss's book was adapted into a two-part TV miniseries, Cruel Doubt, directed by Yves Simoneau. Both television films depicted Dungeons & Dragons handbooks with artwork doctored to imply that they had inspired the murder.

While the controversies over the game created a boost in sales, from $2.3 million in 1979 to $8.7 million by the end of 1980, TSR removed references to demons, devils, and other potentially controversial supernatural monsters from the 2nd Edition of AD&D published in 1989. Devils and demons were renamed baatezu and tanar'ri, respectively, and "they were often referred to as fiends within the text, but the 'D' words were never uttered for years within the game, even though many fans still referred to them by their original names at their own tables. The descriptions of each race focused more on the extra-dimensional aspect of their existence [...] The conflict between the two races (known as the Blood War) also became the focus of their actions, which overtook the seduction of mortals".

After TSR dissolved and was sold to Wizards of The Coast, WOTC later relaxed restrictions and restored characters.

And after so long, there was no evidence linking D&D to the suicides, murder-suicide pacts, and murders committed by D&D players.

60 Minutes Story:

 

The New York Times Retro Report: 

And lest we forget, there are still fundies who cling to this debunked claim that nobody really cares about anymore, but over the years, they have replaced D&D with Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh!, Magic: The Gathering, Vampire: The Masquerade, Harry Potter, The Lord of The Rings, His Dark Materials, The Chronicles of Narnia (Yes, there were some fundies who said that), Various Video Games, and most recently the Labubu dolls, with the absurd claim that they are modeled after Pazuzu, the ancient Mesopotamian deity often associated with evil or darkness as seen in "The Exorcist". I also remember in the late 90s whenever I went to Walmart, when they still had Video Game Lobbies in them, that churches would stick "God's Simple Plan for Salvation" booklets on the Snack and Soda machines, but never touched the video games.  This led some customers to complain and Walmart later installed special racks for those to go on, as well as business cards and such.  What I would give to still see those and place business cards for my Tarot Reading Business next to them and watch people freak out.

I'll finish this panic area up with saying that other targets were Horror Movies and Pornography, and Richard Ramirez trying to make us look bad.  Motherfucker wasn't even a Satanist, he was just a psycho junkie.

And do you remember this PSA mostly shown on Christian TV?:

 

A channel I follow on YouTube also had a nice retrospect about growing up as Generation X kids during the panic, and yes, I grew up in it, right as it was starting:

 

 

If anything, The Satanic Panic just brought more attention to Satanism, both Theistic and Atheistic, as well as Paganism and The Occult at that point, and covens probably increased in numbers (as I have no statistical data) during that point, because Satanists knew the real thing from the hype and the untruths.  They were not doing all that shit that the Fundamentalist VHS tapes that circulated around claimed was the work of Satanists, such as sacrificing infants & animals and sexually abusing children in rituals.  IF anything, sacrifices were done with effigies of humans and animals, because murder and animal cruelty are illegal.  Have you even looked at some of the interviews in those tapes (Which can be found everywhere on YouTube and Internet Archive)? Most of the people interviewed sound like they were coached on what to say, or were hypnotically implanted with false memories.  And the kid's drawings I have seen in some of those tapes, they look like the artwork of adults.  Anyway, time to pull myself out of this old rabbit hole.

 

So, what did lead me to The Occult, Witchcraft, Paganism, and Theistic Satanism?  It was The Satanic Panic.  For years I had that yearning to go down that path, but I was conflicted with my Christian beliefs.

 

"I want you to know something. This is sincere. I want you to know, when it comes to believing in God, I really tried. I really, really tried.

 

I tried to believe that there is a God who created each of us in his own image and likeness, loves us very much and keeps a close eye on things. I really tried to believe that but I gotta tell you. The longer you live, the more you look around, the more you realize something is fucked up. Something is wrong here. War, disease, death, destruction, hunger, filth, poverty, torture, crime, corruption and the Ice Capades. 

 

Something is definitely wrong! This is not good work. If this is the best God can do, I am not impressed. Results like these do not belong in the resume of a supreme being. This is the kind of shit you'd expect from an office temp with a bad attitude.

 

Just between you and me, between you and me... In any decently run universe, this guy would have been out on his all-powerful ass a long time ago. By the way, I say "this guy" because I firmly believe looking at these results that if there is a God, it has to be a man. No woman could or would ever fuck things up like this." -George Carlin

 

Yes, I tried being a "Good Christian" *clap* can't be done. It cannot be done, folks, I'm serious. Conservatism for the most part has corrupted the message of Faith, Hope, & Love.  Christianity over the years became a crutch for hatred.  And I, I feel like I was in most people's eyes, branded a Heretic of the church, because I am Transgender, Bisexual, Pro-Choice, and Anti-Government. I was raised Methodist, but went to a Presbyterian (PCUSA) Church, until I got the news at a service in 2001 that their General Assembly voted not to include LGBTQIA+ members in their clergy (which has since been reversed, too little, too late).  And when I saw people around me nodding and saying "Amen" after hearing this news, that was my fish out of water moment.  There were three people who knew about me, and they saw the look of concern on my face when I heard the words, and they also knew that after we did the choral selection before the sermon that I was going to leave.

 

When I got back to my apartment, I threw up my hands and said, "I'm Done".  And that night, I took everything in my apartment that was Christian and took it to a Thrift store, dumping it all in their donations box. And yes, As proof that I had purged my mind of this religion, I broke my Crucifix and threw the pieces from me... on the front door of the church and drove away.

 

That same night, I began my deconstruction and started reading books on Witchcraft and The Occult from the library, such as the Necromonicon... not the actual one... the one you find in bookstores, the "Simon" Necronomicon, that was actually ghost written by H.P. Lovecraft.  At this point, I felt like I was sick of trying to look fabulous, and instead decided to look more Goth.

 

Over the deconstruction years, I made friends with the Unitarian Universalists, because they accepted me for being Transgender, Bisexual, Pro-Choice, Anti-Government, Goth, and a Knowledge Seeker.  I was invited to a local chapter of the Covenant of Unitarian Universalist Pagans for discussions and rituals and that started me on my journey into Paganism, The Occult, and Theistic Satanism, and they didn't care what I practiced, because they never judged me.

 

Like I said before, Wicca felt restrictive, so I left Wicca, but I held on to my Scott Cunningham and Raymond Buckland books, as some of the concepts were beyond Wicca or pre-dated Wicca's creation.  Yes kids, Wicca is Man-Made and is considered a Religion, where what I practice isn't.  It was there that I got into the Nocturnal aspects, Goth aspects, and even learned a few things about myself that had been repressed.

 

When I turned 18, I had a vision of Lilith in my sleep.  Red hair, long legs, blue eyes, but this vision of her... this was in a dimly lit piano bar.  She was sitting at the piano, playing Mozart's "Turkish March", slowly.  And she was wearing a blue silk ball gown with Gold Rope trim, looking a lot like the memory of how Kate Pierson of The B-52s looked when she did the song "Candy" with Iggy Pop in 1990.  I believe Lilith was using that residual image to reach out to me. She was also wearing blue heels and black opera gloves.

 

I felt like I couldn't move. I could hear, I could talk, but I felt like I couldn't move; However, it felt like I was being moved next to her while she was at the piano and then moved next to her on the piano bench. And all I remember hearing from her was... "Soon, you will know.  It has already happened, but soon, you will know, my child." and that was it.  I woke up feeling uneasy, in a cold sweat, and this all happened on my 18th birthday.  Better than Jack Woltz waking up to that surprise in "The Godfather" (If you know, you know).

 

After I started learning about Wicca, I had the vision again, but this time I didn't feel immobile.  And I asked her if this was when I would know, and she said yes, and she revealed the truth about me... that I in fact was a witch... but a dark witch... and a vampyre... and that I should seek out others who were like me in those respects, but to get rid of the restraints, which was Wicca, and look to the Darkness to fully understand that light cannot exist without darkness.

There is NO Room in The Left Hand Path for everybody?  Yes, there is.  Where the rather dogmatic "Love & Light" fail you, Darkness is there with open arms.

 

I shall share more stories soon.

 

AVE LILITU! 

 

AVE SATANAS!